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trusthell2017-02-19 11:50 am
trustwellness) wrote in trusthell2017-02-19 11:50 am
WEEK 5.
Angela Ziegler, Nicholas Wilde, and Judy Hopps were all punished. Zolf J Kimbley was killed and Gold was executed. Five deaths in one week, the most you've seen so far. Will this ever end? Your number is rapidly dropping. Saturday is given to regrouping and rest; on Sunday morning the clock chimes as it always has, but at least there are no bodies to find today. It seems you're safe for now. The night before wasn't necessarily a peaceful one, however; you'll probably feel a bit groggy when you wake up, and it seems you've regained something that you didn't realize you'd lost... Those checking to see whether another door in the stairwells leading downward have been opened will see that once again, you've been rewarded with a new floor; perhaps it's a shame that so many people had to die in order for you to receive it. Or perhaps it's a blessing from a certain point of view, given what almost happened on Thursday night; after all, your number could be much, much lower. |
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[OOC: Welcome to week five of Trustfell! Feel free to make as many top levels as you'd like and tag out to other characters! This post is for all of your interactions this week... at least until the weekend. Don't forget to save those threads for coins and the activity check!
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art room
He's already setting himself up for the worst, because he's built up some pretty negative expectations in his mind. He's absolutely sure that there is no way Orihime would ever return his feelings. Last night was a mistake, and he wants to forget it. There's no point to getting his hopes up.
The word 'loved' is still on his forehead, but he has combed his hair forward like he usually does, so it is mostly-covered.
Eventually he does find her in the art room, and he swallows down a nervous breath before clearing his throat to get her attention.]
Inoue-san?
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Watanuki-kun.
[ she smiles, softly and sincerely, patting the empty chair next to her. she closes her sketchbook and waits for him to come over. even when he does, she finds it hard to look him in the eye. where does she start? how does she say any of this? ]
...I thought a lot about what you told me, last night. And...I want you to know, first, that it made me really happy.
[ ... ] I don't...know if I should say it back, because... [ ah, this is where things get complicated: ] I still have feelings for Kurosaki-kun. A-And it isn't fair to you if I told you I...I love you, in that way, because of that.
[ it probably sounds bleak, doesn't it? it almost pains her to think about how much it must have hurt him, knowing that she felt so strongly towards ichigo. yet... ]
But...I know that I...I've started to feel something similar towards you, too.
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But then that last part, that's what trips him up. She wasn't supposed to have feelings for him, this is all a mistake! He immediately beats down that glimmer of hope, that 'what if' that has been scratching at the back of his mind. He's not going to consider the possibility that she would actually accept him. It's just not possible, he won't get his hopes up like that.]
N-no, it's alright! I know you like him, you told me as much. I just...
[Silver had forced his hand? He had been caught up in the moment? He had to give it a shot, even if it was hopeless? What excuse would he try to hide behind today?]
It would have been hypocritical of me, to not tell you. Especially after everything I told you about letting him decide if he wants to date you or not.
I don't expect you to drop everything and be with me. That's probably the worst idea possible right about now. I'm okay with you not reciprocating, so don't feel like you have to be nice, or avoid hurting my feelings, or anything. It's...he's better for you.
[He forces himself to stop there. Orihime doesn't need to hear him go into the laundry list of reasons why he would be a terrible boyfriend. That would just make her feel bad, probably.]
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You and Kurosaki-kun are different, Watanuki-kun. After I thought about it last night, I realized that...the sort of ways I feel about both of you, while similar in sentiment, are also really different at the same time! Aha, it's strange to say that, right?
[ she supposes she should explain. she coughs a little, still sick from this week, but she wants to be as honest as she can. ]
I've always felt like Kurosaki-kun was always looking far ahead, at something I couldn't reach. He's so set on his goals and doesn't look back, and he's strong and kind...and...if it weren't for him, I--I don't think I'd be the same person I am today.
[ she keeps ichigo's short for the sake of not hurting watanuki's feelings any more. ]
But Watanuki-kun is strong and kind too, in your own way. When I'm with you, though, I...I feel like I'm already fighting beside you, and that we both understand and think similarly about a lot of things. I find that I look at you and think, 'I want to be like this person, too.' And I've...I've probably told you a lot more about myself than I've even told Kurosaki-kun, ahaha...
So! I guess I'm trying to say that even though I can't forget my feelings for Kurosaki-kun right now, you shouldn't compare yourself with him. You're...different people, not for better or for worse. And I'm not lying or telling you this because I feel bad for you, Watanuki-kun. I'm being truthful.
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He also feels guilty for allowing himself to feel hope right there, even if only for a moment.]
Some of the others have been telling me to talk to you about this, and to not put myself down. And every time I try to explain things to them, about why I don't really have anything good to offer you, they think I'm being fatalistic. But...I don't really have to explain that to you, do I? You can see ghosts too, so you know exactly what I mean when I say 'it wouldn't be an easy life, being with me.'
[That's one of the big reasons why he's never dated. Well, besides people never really liking him in that way. Ghosts are such a huge part of his life, and it can be really scary sometimes. Someone who's never had to deal with ghosts before shouldn't ever have to, in his mind. Especially not on a daily basis.]
And that's not even getting into the fact that we're from two entirely different worlds, I don't have any family, and I'm stuck in a certain job until I pay off a debt. That's...that's what I meant, when I said he's better for you. He doesn't have those burdens on his shoulders, so you wouldn't have to worry about those things either.
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...I don't have a family, either. I find myself training all the time, because I've become one of the protectors of my town with my friends. I don't live an ordinary life...so...it wouldn't be easy being with me, either.
[ she sees ghosts, deals with them all the time...this isn't foreign territory. nor is bloodshed. and the days, months, even years of peace that they can have without any war feels like a luxury at this point in time. ]
Neither of us lead ordinary lives, Watanuki-kun. So...if you think being with you would be an inconvenience...I could say the same for myself, too.
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Somehow, it's almost-dark thoughts like that which start to bring Watanuki around.]
Ha! If we're both inconveniences, then maybe it would be better to be together. It would probably be easier to handle those inconveniences that way.
[Love can't fix everything, but it can make trying times easier to overcome.]
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it's funny, how they're so alike in ways they probably haven't even realized-- ]
Ahaha, you're right!
[ it's a sad kind of laugh, but it rings true; watanuki knows her more than almost everyone here does. he can sympathize--empathize, even--with what she's been through. she finds that it gives her comfort, security, knowing that she can trust him with all of that... ]
So...you shouldn't worry about those sorts of things, Watanuki-kun.
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[He worries too much anyway, but he'll try to worry less. Try being the key word there.]
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I'm going to think on things for a little while longer, if you don't mind. I...I need time to sort out my feelings.
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Yeah, sure, of course. Take all the time you need.
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[ she nods once; orihime cares about watanuki a lot, but she wants to be fair to him. see if this is really the right thing to do, because she knows that once she goes back home and sees ichigo...her feelings for him will flood right on back. ]
I...don't want to hurt you.
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[He's used to being hurt. He's used to being left behind. But he's not going to say that, because he gets the feeling that it wouldn't reassure Orihime at all.]
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[ for being so kind and patient with her. he's way too good to her, to someone who's really just making things more complicated than they need to be. ]